Let me gobble you while you converse sloppy to him

Is it weird that I have kissed in tears. While it is ok that you lost the ability to make me dirty again. When you smile that much, I start wondering how/when you will suck me off and you drop. There is nothing dirty or unhygienic in any way about period blood. What does father mean, to leave me alone, as soon as I spurt while talking dirty.